photo by Kama Catch Me
Except for last month (June) I’ve been really good about setting intentions for the month in lieu of goals. Even better than setting them, I have managed to focus and make progress on each of them. I went from getting organised in January, setting goals and doing the work in February, just getting started in March, creating not consuming in April and showcasing professionalism through poise and grace in May. June didn’t get an intention because I was too busy extending the professionalism through poise and grace intention into June while I blogged for Fiji Fashion Week and continued some of my professional work. Thinking of an intention for July was a little harder for me. See, July is my birthday month. And this July also marks last year I’ll be able to say I’m in my twenties. I turn thirty next year, gulp. There have been moments lately where I’ve just been halted by the fear of what next? Does there have to be a next big thing that I accomplish? Do I need to keep doing these things? Am I wanting to do them for me, or am I succumbing to outside pressures? I really don’t know. Sometimes I feel like I should be achieving more. So this month, I’m taking stock. I’m looking at what I’ve done and I’m going to start mapping out where I want to be by the time I turn thirty. Just some significant (to me) accomplishments. I don’t think I’ll come up with those thirty before thirty lists, that’s not me but this is just a process of elimination. I’m not sure what I’ll come by with.
I do know that it’s not about bigger or better. I’ve done some huge things in my life, things that people usually strive for when they’re much older and even then don’t always achieve. It’s not about those things for me. I’ve proved what I can do to myself and to everyone else. I think now it’s going to be all those little things I let pass to get me to where I am. It’s going to be about moving forward and achieving things that are a little different to what I’ve spent the past ten years achieving. I hope to be sharing what I decide closer to middle of the month, and my birthday. This month for me is to map out the next big
Have you got a goal or intention for the month? Let me know if you’d like a buddy to help keep you on track. We can watch out for each other.
PS In other exciting news, I’m so thrilled to share the launch of The Kindred Collective e-magazine on motherhood and families. I contributed a story on the birth of my family and it’s so special to me. The magazine costs $10 and contains 94 pages of beautiful (sometimes funny, sometimes raw) words and images. Part of the proceeds from sales goes to a fistula hospital in Ethiopia. If you’re interested you can have a look and perhaps buy a copy here.